Tag: encouragement

life is a highway

03.07.2003

It’s an incredible thing. Life. It’s incredible. No amount of conversation or education can adequately prepare you. It happens. Moment after moment. Day after day. Year after year. There isn’t a rule book, and don’t ever let anyone tell you there is. It just isn’t true. There are no rules, just a rush of happenings that you soak in, wade through, and figure out as you go along. And every so often, you think about where you are and how you got here….and it will take your breath away if you let it. Because it’s incredible.

On a cold Friday morning in March, I went into an Omaha hospital eager to meet this new little human that was coming into the world. I had so many thoughts about how that would go and had prepared as much as I could for a thing I knew nothing about. But it is a humbling and honest statement to say that nothing can prepare you for what it means to birth a child except actually birthing a child. A few hours of the craziest mash-up of nature, and support, and hard, exhausting work and a new soul entered the world.

I can remember reading a verse around the time that Elias was born that said of Jesus, that he grew in wisdom, and stature, and in favor with God and man (Luke 2:52). I remember distinctly thinking that was such a simple phrase, but that it was somewhat of an outline. All that I longed for in my son was that somehow, some way, he would also grow in wisdom, and in stature, and in favor with God and man.

At the time, I thought it was my directive as a mother. Somewhere along the way, though, I realized that even though I was his mother, he was a person responsible for his own growth. We could teach him, but it would be he who would have to find the courage to apply it where needed. We could show him how to live in community with others, but he would have to sift through his relationships and take the good or rise above the bad. He would have to be a man of his word. He alone would cross the bridges he built with others or climb the clefts of bridges burned. And ultimately his relationship with God would be his, and his alone.

My son, in the 18 years since you changed my world, you have forever changed the lives of so many more. You have been enthusiastic and open-minded and asked great questions. You have been a loyal and true friend. You have been brave. You have found inner grit and determination. You have loved your younger brothers fiercely and wildly. You are passionate and witty and kind and exude the kind of openness that makes you light and attractive. You are a whole soul who has put real and honest thought into what you value and who you are. You are a stand-out human that Dad and I are infintely in awe that we didn’t somehow royally mess up.

If I have anything to offer you as you turn this page in your jouney it is this: pay attention to where you are and look at where you were. Life is strange and amazing and things will never happen as quickly as you want them to but also much faster than you will ever expect. So take stock. Remember that there are no rule books, only lessons to learn and decisions to make. Own your choices and keep growing.

-mom

03.07.2021

More Than Words

When I was a little girl, I had grown people in my life make statements like, “A woman shouldn’t be president.  Women are too emotional. I’m a woman; I can’t imagine having to lead a country when I’m on my period.” I, as a child, respected those people, thought they knew more than me, and found myself absorbing and regurgitating those words.

When I was a teenager,  I had grown people in my life make statements like, “A woman shouldn’t be president.  A man should be head of the country,  because man is head of the church and head of the home, so God made men to lead. If there are qualified men, then a man should be in charge.” As a teenager, I respected those people,  thought they knew more than me, and found myself absorbing and regurgitating those words.

In my 20s, I was a headstrong, competent,  capable young woman with a mind for leading, a proven track record for organizing and building teams, and a vision for ministry.  Yet I was still internalizing, rationalizing, and regurgitating faulty, baseless, and harmful ideals about women in leadership.  I had internalized that because I was a woman, my strengths and gifts had been somehow mitigated by my DNA.

But the older I got, the more I realized that in society and in scripture, women are not only equipped for, but appointed to leadership roles. As a wife who has been loved, nurtured, admired, and respected for more than 20 years by a strong, Godly man who has walked by my side and was never threatened by my gifts, I have recognized that women are not only capable and called, but also often the most competent and qualified person to lead. Women successfully plan meals, manage budgets, negotiate domestic peace treaties, and overseee health and wellness, and that is just in their own homes. Many times that is on top of their full-time careers.

Those people who said those things when I was a little girl were wrong. Categorically,  scientifically,  they were wrong. A woman’s period is not a hinderance to anything other than her wallet due to all the clothes she ruined and the pads/tampons she had to buy…and pay taxes on <<insert eyeroll here>>.

Those people who tried to teach me about women in the church were wrong too. We don’t have to split hairs about women’s roles in ministry.  That isn’t what this is about. This is about acknowledgment that we have to do better about the messages we tell young people.  I was told by too many people that my leadership gifts should only go so far and should be kept in check because it would lead to a spirit of rebellion against male authority.  We have to do better.

It is a phenomenal achievement that a woman will be Vice President.  This isn’t a political post. Regardless of where you are on the political spectrum, this is a phenomenal accomplishment. Because women are equipped to lead. Women are called to lead. Women are capable of leading. And women are, very often, the most qualified for such a time as this. What makes women unique from men also may provide exactly what is needed in a church, organization, business, or nation to find success. To find solutions. To find hope and healing.

Don’t be afraid to tell boys and girls that it’s a great accomplishment that a woman is in charge. In spite of all the messages she has been told, she has risen to the top. Be bold. Elevate this moment regarding the VP even if you don’t agree with her politics. The messages you speak now matter.

Hangin’ Tough

Life. Is. Hard. Let’s be honest, there is nothing fun about pain, heartache, struggles, or challenging circumstances. Nobody wakes up in the morning hoping that the bottom is going to fall out. And when things are most difficult, I find myself looking at the lives of others’ that seem much more attractive than my own. Or I feel disappointed that I haven’t gotten where I’d hoped to be when it seems like everyone else has.

But no matter how green someone’s pasture may be, it didn’t get that way by sunshine and pixie dust. I mean, sunshine is important, but so is rain.

…And so is a good tractor.
…And a good hoe.
…And sun up till sundown, backbreaking sweat and tears.

Work like that is difficult and the last time I checked, Tinkerbell isn’t hanging out in my neighborhood making all things sparkly and beautiful. Yet everyone that I know and love and respect has experienced their share of heartache. Every person has looked tragedy in the face. Every person has had their own insurmountable obstacles in their path. Every. Single. One.

But it is how those difficult situations were worked through that makes people who they are. And even though suffering sucks and none of us want it, the grit that is developed from working through our stuff is actually a vital and integral part of productive and healthy lives.

Sadly, when we go through trials, we are quick to throw ourselves a pity party and look at the blessings and abundance of others without recognizing that those with the greenest pastures likely ploughed through the most manure, if you catch my drift. It’s the tough stuff that builds that abundance. It is the muck and mire that makes us a life that is beautiful. It’s the desperation of our troubles that will sow within us the greatest seasons of growth.

I see you, my friend. I see those parched and dry gardens from a seemingly never-ending drought and the fields that have been trashed by one too many storms. I see the weight of life’s circumstances weighing heavy on your back. I see the disappointment from yet another season of struggle and sadness from things not as you expect. I also see your grit.

Hang tough. Work it out. You have to work it out in order for it to work on you. So grab ahold of it. Wrestle with it. Use your resources and walk through it.

Draw closer to God the Father and as you lean into His Word and His strength, He will build something incredible from your brokeness.

-jewels

the miracle of the moment.

I have a wandering mind. Can anyone else relate? At any given moment, I have at least a dozen thoughts vying for my attention. And my mind…well, it feels manic, mostly. There are days when I am so lucid. Really. I mean, I can actually have an adult conversation that lasts longer than 20 seconds and really feel big-time smart when we’ve finished. Big. Time. But those days, those moments, are sparse. Maybe all it takes to change that, though, is just a moment.

Sometimes I think that my mind gets so scattered and unorganized because of all the things I want to say or want to do that get put off because I tell myself I don’t have the time to do it right. For me, my desire to make sure I have it just right can take me out of the treasure of the moment into the strain of the of-so-perfect “later” when it really just never gets said or done.

So here I am sitting, on the eve of the first Monday of 2020 deciding to take a moment. Just a moment to reflect on the day, pray, write, and encourge. As many of you, I have looked towards what is ahead for the months to come and I am looking at ways to improve and grow from what I have learned in the months past. I am reminded of how often I have prayed for things to come, but how easily I have been distracted from the paths that the Lord has laid out to accomplish those goals.

The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. -Proverbs 16:9

Even as I am writing this, I am struggling with feeling that I haven’t said really what I meant to say. But when I lean into the Lord, I am reminded that right now, this is just about being present and surrendered to the moment so that He can start something in me and through me.

So friends, be encouraged to be present. Be encouraged to take a moment. Say what’s on your heart. Accomplish that task. Take something off the backburner. And watch what can happen as all those purposeful moments add up to meaningful steps towards your goals.

-jewels

it’s who you know.

I am sitting here, in my living room, listening to the symphony playing throughout the house. It is beautiful music. Sweet and deep. But the music is lost on me. As my family plays their nighttime symphony (read: snoring) I am sitting here awake with my thoughts.

My thoughts today have been consumed with a season of great personal frustration. I mean, I don’t know how else to say it, but I am just frustrated. And sad. And annoyed. But mostly frustrated. There is too much to this personal narrative. Far too much to put into words at 2:15 am, but it all rounds out with one big word: REJECTION.

For some context, over the past 8 months, I have submitted over 30 applications for jobs, had 3 interviews, and have received at least 10 letters of rejection. Apparently I don’t have the right credentials, the right experience, or know the right person. So this is, on the surface, about the overwhelming frustration I am experiencing from not being able to

GET A STINKING JOB!!!!!!!

Sorry I yelled at you. That wasn’t very nice.

But this is also tangled up in deeper stuff of moving halfway across the country, leaving our family and friends, feeling out of place, and still not having a community. So the feeling that seeps down is rejection.

I have never found that word to be so real. Of course I have experienced rejection, but it typically has a way of not making it past my top layer. I can remember so many times of feeling rejected from one thing or another. And there were tears. A great many deep sobs and snotty noses. So don’t get me wrong, I have experienced rejection. But those tears always served to bathe away the residue of those experiences and push me towards what was next.

But what I am walking through right now is so very different. This journey has pushed itself into a much deeper place than I have ever felt it before. My tears have lost their cleansing properties and the rejection seems to have taken up residence in my soul. I want it out.

Tonight as I was laying in bed trying to find sleep and ruminating on all of this junk, these words came softly to mind:

I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth…

Those are the first verses to a chapter in the Bible, Psalm 121, memorized long ago. The chapter is a song of inspiration and motivation and reminder of God’s provision and protection. But something stood out to me as the words came to me. It’s easy to say things to myself or to others who are experiencing difficult stuff like, “God holds the future,” or “God will take care of us,” or “God will help you through it.” And the focus is always on what God will do.

But what is really striking, when I get right down to it, is that I know God. I know God. And more than that, I am not rejected by Him. I lift my eyes to Him and He sees me.

That sounds so cliché and simple and completely church-y to say. But it is a profound reminder to my aching soul that I am connected to the All Powerful. To the Creator of Everything. To the One who holds the stars. And that doesn’t give me a sense that He is going to fix it all or do anything for me. That’s what’s so incredible about this.

I think we always look to God as some genie who’s going to work it out for us. But tonight, I am making no assertion. I don’t believe that having bigger faith or bigger prayers will get me where I am trying to be in the job world. Nor do I believe that calling out to Him is going to magically make friends appear on my doorstep with casseroles and a ready made girls’ night. I just don’t think that’s how it works.

But in simply remembering that I know Him, I am suddenly feeling peace bathe and soothe the sting of rejection. I am connected to the Lord, who made Heaven and Earth. So while my mind struggles through the frustration that is plaguing me in this season, I will put my soul to rest, and hopefully find sleep tonight, with 2 things:

…a reminder that the Lord sees me and knows me….

…and the sounds of my beautiful blessings playing their symphony.

-Jewels